Saturday, December 10, 2011
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
After over a week and a half of conversation with Mr. Darden on Dr. N. Hare's post regarding "Black Anglo Saxans", this is my conclusion and breakdown of his last sharing with M.E.
Following this post, will be the information I shared with him that he IGNORED because it was not presented the white[right] way!
Sunday, October 30, 2011
During a recent surf on facebook, a friend's status spoke about "educated blacks" and their responsibility for the masses of the people. As I listened to the conversation unfold, here were some of my thoughts and experiences on being black and "educated"
Thursday, July 28, 2011
I AM Abena, THE RE~Covering Afreekan who is enslaved in amerikkka. I AM also a RE~Presentative from the Voices in Da Margins. I AM also TRUE TO THE CAUSE of Afreekan Liberation via Unification and Utilizing the Tool of Healthy and Effective COMMUNICATIONS!
I AM THE "Traumatized Traumatologist" and a Communications Coach [therapist]
I have developed this SELF-HELP Program for people of Afreekan Descent to assist in RECOVERING from the Mental, Emotional and Behavioral illness incurred with the FORCED FEEDING of a Faulty Cultural Story.
Afreekan Descendants have IN FACT been "BORN IN SIN AND SHAPED IN INIQUITY" living in a SHYTSTEM of RACISM/white supreme lunacy!
This broadcast is intended to function as a 12 step SELF HELP program as we come together to SHARE OUR Experiences, Strengths and Plans related to surviving in this shytstem.
Meetings vary in focus and includes teaching about Trauma and Traumatic stress for Afreekan descendants in particular, sharing my personal life stories as examples, sharing or placing in context (from a mental, emotional, and/or behavioral context) the current challenges Afreekan Descendants face and experience, and/or offering a Safe Space for others to share their story.
Available for Consultation on a relational, parenting or individual challenge you may be facing.
I AM the MA ME - [MOTHER AFREEKA MAMA EARTH] and I AM here....now...for U and with U...working to RE~Create the US/WE
TH~ANKH YOU ALL FOR BE~ING HERE....NOW...
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
R.N.A is a self-help program for Afreekan Descendants to share their PERSONAL Experiences, Strengths and Plans RE~lated to the impact of Racism in their/OUR Lives in order to support HEALING and the RE~Building of their Afreekan Spirits!
Monday, April 18, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
AN AFREEKAN’S STORY
THE TRAUMATIZED TRAUMATOLOGIST
CAUSE RACISM IN THE LIVES OF AFREEKAN DESCENDANTS IS NOT A SECRET
This is my Story and I’m Sticking to it!
"Anytime you find someone more successful than you are, especially when you're both engaged in the same business-- you know they're doing something that you aren't." - Malcolm X (Page: 21).
“The United Nations General Assembly adopted resolution 64/169 by consensus on December 18, 2009, proclaiming the year beginning on, January 1, 2011, the International Year for People of African Descent, with a view to:
Strengthen national actions and regional and international cooperation for the benefit of people of African descent in relation to their full enjoyment of economic, cultural, social, civil and political rights, their participation and integration in all political, economic, social and cultural aspects of society, and the promotion of a greater knowledge of and respect for the diverse heritage and culture of people of African descent… the goals of the year which are Recognition, Justice and Development.”
“Humans are social beings, who exist in human relationships” ~ Regina Andresen
White people, in their relationship with not only the Afreekan Descendant, yet, all peoples in the world for which they have had contact have spread E.V.I.L. (European Viral Infection LIES). In their wake is a well documented history of causing ACTS OF INTENTIONAL HARM leading to the death and destruction of the HUMAN Spirit, Psyche with the tearing down and installation of a faulty cultural story.
It is useful for me that they have done such an excellent job of practicing what they preach and teach. Presenting, reference is made to the teaching that “if it’s not written, it does not count”.
Knowledge, if it is to be accepted, must be documented in some way so as to provide proof of that we you say you know about anything. This LIE has been extended even to the knowing of self, individually and collectively. Towards that end they have in fact provided excellent documentation of their long-standing historical atrocities perpetrated first amongst themselves then supporting their LIES going viral across the globe.
So to has the Africans story and their relationship with the European been well documented and in fact, current thinking and behavioral indicators highlight the outcome of that union. Their pathway to death and destruction for the African descendant has not diverted its course and path of Cultural destruction with acts of pure E.VI.L. I must warn you, my African mind thinks and processes information utilizing in metaphors, anagrams and parallel processes.
Afreekan people the world over bear the scars of mental, emotional and behavioral health abuse inflicted by the LIES told about our true Cultural story. Those LIES and half truths continue to be told inflicting upon another generation of Afreekan Descendants ACTS OF INTENTIONAL HARM in the form of Educational abuse. Our thinking or mental processes appear to be quite faulty given the “choices” we make in our daily lived experiences. The tragic state of our communities is alarming, at least to those of us who are a part of them. Drug abuse, mental illness, economic depravity, violence domestic and communal, engagement with the legal system and major physical health challenges are the primary markers of said tragic state and “failure” to grow and develop as other ethnic/racial groups have who profess a different Cultural Story separate and apart from that of the European.
The emphasis on ACTS OF INTENTIONAL HARM is in place to take into account the significance of the action as well as the impact and influence on current behaviors by all members of the ‘human’ race.
This “black paper” will share information regarding my EXPERIENCES, STRENGHTS AND PLANS (herein referred E.S.P.) related to the process of RE~Covery from the faulty Cultural Story I have been FORCED to live and offer an avenue for others to follow when they become R.A.W. (Ready, Willing and Able). My E.S.P. will be drawn from personal, professional and educational venues and
As an Afreekan child growing up in the sixties, my goals were to move at least, into the social status of the Middle class. Being a member of the middle class meant owning a home, car, bearing children with a husband, having the ability to travel and generally, and most importantly, being economically self-sufficient. The means for attaining this goal was to get a college degree. With that, my mother said, one could “write your own ticket” to life. I would not be ‘dependent’ on NO MAN, be he white or black.
Well, I am now over the age of fifty and as I review my progress I find that while I have obtained the college degree on the Masters level, and earned a middle class salary, I am still dependent on “THE MAN” to employ me.
All these things were to lead to happiness and it’s no wonder that “happy ain’t no friend of mine” (Tanya Stephens). Instead, I have no home and am, legally speaking, homeless. I have no car and am not financially secure to get one. I have produced no children, am not in a healthy marital relationship, have acquired no respect or regard as a scholar, can make no money from natural
in~borne entertaining qualities like singing or sports. I live one paycheck away from not being able to assure my basic needs of food, clothing and shelter and therefore according to the current standards, I have “failed” and am “a failure”. “Failed” and with failing health and waning Spirit. What else could account for this terrible state of aloneness and loneliness I am experiencing, if I weren’t “a failure”? I’ve been “forced” out of just about every community, group (including family), friendship and partnerships because of my being a failure.
“Success” in this societal system, is defined as having attained goals set or having attained a particular social status. “Failure” is viewed as the opposite, where one experiences her or himself as not having done the same. Based on those basic meanings of the terms, I have failed and I admit it. I have become an utter and complete “failure”.
As I sit and ponder my situation, I have to review and wonder; “how did this happen”? How is it that despite 18 years of education, 15 years in therapy, 25 years of work experience in my field of study, how is it that I am where I am? In answering that question another arises, “Is it because I’m Black”? Could my “failure” be connected to the fact that I live and exist in a SYSTEM of racism/white supremacy? In response to that, my answer is YES! That is exactly what it is.
Now many may wonder how I could possibly come to that conclusion. Many others have affirmed that being “black” has nothing to do with one’s ability to be ‘successful’ in this great country. After all, it is the “land of the free and home of the brave”. People here, in Western Civilization are free to be anything they desire. Still others would challenge the notion that I had “failed” and, having come to know all that I have, that assertion would be correct. I shall come back to this after I’ve told my “failure story”. This story, along with the noted solution to the problems supporting my “failure” will highlight the very “success” that I live as an Afreekan Descendant. If you continue listening, I'll tell you more.
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
As the new year began, my father called to wish we well. He asked a very specific question for which I had some very specific thoughts and feelings in response. I did not however, answer his question honestly. I understood at the time why that was the case, what prevented me from sharing with my Daddy EXACTLY what I thought and felt during my families new year celebration/get together.
While it was great to be with family on the 31st, it was not all well with and for me. I am the proverbial "black sheep" of the family and despite my best efforts, continue to be the primary scapegoat, marginalized truth teller. It is always the one in the family who speaks truth and reality that people avoid and chalk up as the "crazy one". Now to their defense, they may have me labeled as such because of my numerous hospitalizations for depression, yet, they are unable to understand the source of my suppressed anger and they support me with maintaining that suppression cause no one wants to hear your/my truth.
So I did not tell my daddy what I really thought and felt and these thoughts flowed following my conversation with him.
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
So I've been banned from the Nation, the RBG Nation that is. What i've done to warrant such action? Spoke my truth to the power base of the site. I just posted a podcast talking about the need to be "dishonest" in this society and with the men in particular and this action taken against me validates my experiences and assessment of our shytuation as a people.
It seems we ARE UNABLE to be HONEST with each other because "we can't handle" each others truths. The matrix we all exist in is so real. It is just as a spiders "web" and it seems to more we work to get free, the more bound in it we become as we utilize the same tactics that got us caught up in the first place.
Uh hummm....going it alone....again....
Mayhap I'll meet YOU along my journey and mayhap we will walk together for a spell...yet...in this hell...it is only likely to be a short spell of walking together cause we..or I know...at some point along the way, one of us will get caught up and separated....again....
And now I have to return to TELL THE TRUTH about what happened. Seems I WAS NOT BANNED from the Nation. Seems it was a tech glitch that apparently resulted in many accounts being suspended. Mines was able to be reinstalled so I spoke to soon about what I thought happened....MY BAD and I take responsibility to for it...
It DOES NOT NEGATE the real reality of my experiences with most people these days. I do continue to have brief spells with others of us who are Conscious of the Matrix and shystem we are in. So, I'll let the words stand and add corrections or updates as needed!
Monday, January 3, 2011
Video dialogue dealing with the musical messages that supported Black women with being quick to trust Negroes and open their legs. The Jackson 5 were but one group of black males who crooned in our ears and hearts the possibility of Black Love and togetherness...forever and a day.
In this episode of Abena's World, I'm sharing the revelations of the dynamic and interactive process playing it/themselves out on the five levels of lived experiences represented in APoLE.
broken all the way down for you here the story goes like this...
we were forced to remain separate for at least 300 years and had the dream and ability to crushed with acts of terror and domestic abuse (abuse perpetrated on the home land). then we won our civil "rights" and equal access to opportunity we knew little to begin with since we had to fight to get in for the first time after all the abuse.....and we sang songs to bring that vision to light and societal influences supported and encouraged the messages....here in amerikkka. Musical messages teaching about and envisioning Liberation from European cultural thought or exposure of hypocrisy, lies, greed and manipulation (i.e. Nina Simone, Bob Marley) were censored and the artist[s] moved abroad for exposure and opportunity to live their god given gifts and talents for their own benefit.
amerikkka knew of the damage traumatic stress caused and set us up for the mess we in. we lived the dream, opened our legs and hearts, brothers left as they had been programmed to do because they did not have the means to uphold the dream, amerikkka right there to stoke the flames of scorned passion and disconnect by giving to the woman and leaving the men who became jealous, enraged and acting out...getting theirs ...bamn..by any means neccessary..and amerikkka gave them what was neccessary...drugs
but...that's for another episode so stay tuned.....